22 Mar 2015, 8:37 pm
#213
(22 Mar 2015, 8:04 pm)Jimmi Just feel in such a bad mood right now.
Seeming to think why I'm bothering with Flickr and I am thinking that no-one really cares what I do and feel like no-one is following me, even though I do have a decent amount of followers and get a good amount of favourites on most photos.
I have no idea why I am feeling like this right now, earlier this afternoon I was thinking that I have a good number of followers and people who view my Flickr but every so often I just seem to think that I have very few followers when that is not the case, think it could be a case of jealousy as all day I've been seeing Marcus' photo which made it onto Explore popping up on my activity page and I am thinking it is good that he got a photo on there but at the same time I am thinking "why can't I get a photo on Explore, all the effort I put into my Flickr and I feel like I am getting nowhere and I am wasting my time" I don't know why I am thinking this and I am hating myself for thinking this.
Think this could possibly stem back to when I was in school as I wasn't that popular so no-one payed that much attention to me and then when I did things at school such as sporting events everyone else would get praise and it was like I wasn't even there and it just made my existence feel pointless and wondered why I even bothered trying to do anything, even people who did things worse than me would get showered with praise and I would just be sat feeling neglected, seriously I often felt like I was invisible to everyone at school.
I am zero idea why I sometimes get like this and it makes me hate myself for thinking this.
Sorry if am boring you all with my crazy down feelings or you disagree with what I said and please don't think I am up my arse for wanting more people to view my Flickr and wanting a photo on Explore.
Honestly I am grateful for all the followers I have on Flickr and that people view it.
Jimmi, your photos are fantastic, much better than. There is nothing wrong with them, and if you don't like them, just keep practicing them, and you'll be fine
