Just feel in such a bad mood right now.
Seeming to think why I'm bothering with Flickr and I am thinking that no-one really cares what I do and feel like no-one is following me, even though I do have a decent amount of followers and get a good amount of favourites on most photos.
I have no idea why I am feeling like this right now, earlier this afternoon I was thinking that I have a good number of followers and people who view my Flickr but every so often I just seem to think that I have very few followers when that is not the case, think it could be a case of jealousy as all day I've been seeing Marcus' photo which made it onto Explore popping up on my activity page and I am thinking it is good that he got a photo on there but at the same time I am thinking "why can't I get a photo on Explore, all the effort I put into my Flickr and I feel like I am getting nowhere and I am wasting my time" I don't know why I am thinking this and I am hating myself for thinking this.
Think this could possibly stem back to when I was in school as I wasn't that popular so no-one payed that much attention to me and then when I did things at school such as sporting events everyone else would get praise and it was like I wasn't even there and it just made my existence feel pointless and wondered why I even bothered trying to do anything, even people who did things worse than me would get showered with praise and I would just be sat feeling neglected, seriously I often felt like I was invisible to everyone at school.
I am zero idea why I sometimes get like this and it makes me hate myself for thinking this.
Sorry if am boring you all with my crazy down feelings or you disagree with what I said and please don't think I am up my arse for wanting more people to view my Flickr and wanting a photo on Explore.
Honestly I am grateful for all the followers I have on Flickr and that people view it.
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